Turning 26

So yesterday I turned 26. My husband did a great job of trying to make it a special day. But I was a poo pooh head about the whole thing, and for that I am sorry Jon. Now to figure out why I am being such a downer about my birthday it is not like I was turning 30 or anything it was just 26 there is nothing big about that number. I think it is because I am feeling very unsettled about my life right now. When I say unsettled it has noting to do with my family or friends, I love them all very dearly and would not change a one of them for anything. I mean more with my goals and where I thought I would be in life. Where I am to day 26 and one day is no where that I thought that I would be at this point in my life. I thought that I would be in a career that I loved but I am not. I am just it a job that is OK but not what I want to be doing. Shortly before my birthday I found some papers that I had gotten from U of L's grad program. Some how I had gotten it in my head that I only needed 3 classes before I could get in. When I found the papers I found that I had been wrong. I need about 6, so then I keep thinking to myself is this goal that I put out there for my self even reach able. What else will I have to put on hold in order to see my dream come true. Is it fare of me to ask my husband to put thing on hold so that I can do this. So today I am reevaluating my goals and dreams. Will I become a teacher by doing the grad program at U of L, will I redo my under grad and become a teacher that way or will I even go on with this dream of being a teacher. I guess only time will tell. But for now I think I am allowed to be down about this realization of my dreams.